You say you loved me before I was born
knit together in the womb
sinful at birth I came to the table
you made room
Always feeling like I’m not enough, undeserving, self-centered, materialistic,
you say, maybe, but still so loved
You called to me, every day anew.
I turn away to satisfy my own desires, unfulfilled, wanting more,
you continue to pursue
I fill my day with stuff to do.
Clean the house, serve my spouse,
teach the kids, be strong, be vulnerable,
put myself out there, have quiet time,
be the light of the world, shine shine shine.
I make a list a mile long
You say, sit with me, hear my song
I’m too busy
something I’d never say to you
but my actions speak louder and I continue
on the road of adulting
wifey and mother
too blessed to be stressed
I remind myself, it’s worth the trouble
but all the while I feel you tug at my heart
sit with me, slow down
my masterpiece, my work of art
It’s Valentine’s Day
there’s baskets to make, cookies to bake
I can’t slow down, my husband’s out of town! it’s all on me! I think, frantically
I feel shaken inside. Anxiety.
Come to me my child, you say
this life you have is a gift.
Slow down, put away your list.
I will give you everything you need.
Find rest in me, let me lead.
I loved you before you were born,
gave you everything you need.
Your provider, your friend,
creator, sustainer, healer,
king whose rule shall have no end.
Trust me my love
those feelings inside
the ones that make you insecure and want to hide
leave those at my feet.
I will give you rest
find strength in me
my power is made perfect when you feel weak.
You don’t have to do it all,
be everything for everyone,
sit with me, take MY call.
I will lead you besides still streams
fill your cup while the world screams
do more, be more, buy more, take more.
Quiet those voices, all you need is the Lord.
I am your first love, come back to me,
You are my beautiful bride,
just sit with me,
My valentine.